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Message from: Kel, 12 Oct 05

Subject: My Little Bro - RIP Nellybongo

I lost my bro 3mths ago in a horrific car crash, 4 other people died. I still can't belive he's gone. He was 19, I'm 21. I thought I was doin ok, back 2work etc. This week has been awful, I don't want to leave the house, I've beenoff work. 11days afta the accident my granda died. My poor mum. I'm so tired of struggling all the time. I love him and miss him so much. He was such a good friend to me and such a happy character. I'm so proud I had him as my little brother. I just don't know what i'm meant to do.

Subject: i know how you feel

last year i lost my brother. he had just turned 20, i was 17. he was my bst friend. there were 3 others in the car and i always think y cudnt it b them but i wudnt wish that on any 1. i messed up my life by not going to work coz i felt deperessed, i lost my job an havent found one since coz ive lost my confidence. im scared if i go bk 2 work i will feel depressed again. but i have managed, im trying my hardest to look for a job now. i thought what would my bro say if he could see me now. how im messing up my life.u will get thro it trust me.

Subject: not tru

Hi
i read ur message and agree wid u i lost my Best m8 and feel like hell.......but time heals nothing 4 me.......2 me more time gone by is worse and i no it mite not b the same 4 any1 els......i almost killed miself.............sorry
always here 4 u KATxXx

Subject:i lost my bro on the 9th of agust 2004

To kel
I know how you feel i lost my brother on the 9th of agust 2004.It his his second birthday with out me on the 14th of november he will be 16 he was 14 when he died.I was shocked when my dad put his arm round me and said adam has hung him self. i frooze i could not eat or drink!My brother was not only a brother he was a best friend to i used to doss out with him every day! i am finding it very hard to cope i am getting excluded from school all the time!
because i can't consentrate because only what is going through my head is where is adam!I cry at school and my mates ask me what is wrong because one minute im fine then the next minute im crying because i don't feel right having fun with out my brother my head is in peices!i am only 13 i am 14 on the 25th of november! At times i feel like doing somthing to go back to my brother!!But then i think off my mum and my dad and the rest off the family i think to my self don't do it because the family has got anough trouble!! but i just feel like no-one loves me.but i know they do because my mum has sat me down and told me she loves me and every-one else does.. but at time i feel like i am not loved even when my mum puts her harms around me and squeezes me tight and says i love you i feel like she doesn't... im going now so take care:( keep in touch write back to me love laura xx

Subject:Our Brothers

Hey Laura, So sorry ihaven't replied. Forget to check sometimes. What helps me keep going is the fact Neil would hate me to ruin my life...he was such a happy go lucky person it would hurt him to see me upset all the time. I can't help it sometimes thou. Get in touch... (sorry Kel because of safety & confidentiality we don't post peoples personal e-mail addreses or phone numbers you can still keep in touch through the message board. Hope you can undersatnd why we do this. All the best RD4U) Hope ur ok

Subject:i hate it with out my brother

hiya kel
i forgot about this site i just rememberd thanks for the message it would be good if we could give each other our email adress so we could always be in touch but we'll have to keep in touch through this site.. i just wanted to say thanks really but i hope you are coping and stuff im gonna go get in touch plz xxxxxxxx