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Message from: sadie, 04 Aug 05

Subject: my dad killed himself

im 15 years old now, i was 12 when my dad killed himself, i hve recently broke dwn 2 me mum, syin i wnted 2 b dead, n evrytime im dwn i alwys fink of endin it 2 b wiv me dad, i lved my dad so much, he was alwys ther, as my mum suffers frm depression, so i neva really spnt much time wiv her as she was in n out of hospital, wen he died, i dint no hw 2 tlk 2 me mum, we hve nly recently strtd gt on, i hve been thru alot of trouble wich i regret v much since my dad killed himslf, n tht has all cort up wiv me n now i dnt no hw 2 deal wiv ny of it! :( i hve no1, my mum has recently strtd bein tken off her medication, n i cnt deal wiv how she is, i hve no1 2 hlp me wiv her, her byf isnt any hlp! i jst dnt no wot 2 do... i h8 ppl nown im like this, i hve alwys been seen as the strng 1, but now i dnt no how 2 be :(

Subject: For Sadie

Hey,i know exactly what your going through,my dad killed himself last August(2004) and im 15 now,im Also suffering from Depression because of it,but now i have professional councilling.Even though your dad has passed away,just remember he will always be in your heart for ever and he loved and will still love you forever no matter what. Your dad wouldnt want you to kill yourself. Every time you feel down,try thinking of the happy thoughts and the good things you and your dad did together. You do have people to talk to. Try getting in touch with a local councillor or a councillor or Bereavements service at your local Hospital(they should have one)
You shouldnt hate people knowing you are feeling down,people will understand that you are going through and have been going through a hard time these past years,and if people know,then they can help you. Try talking to a close friend or teacher or a school councillor if you have one? Just remember,your not on your own.
Love Chel XxXxX