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Message from: harriet, 14 Jan 05

Subject: confused

i have recently lost an ex boyfriend of mine, we split recently due 2 domestic violence issues which were his problems not mine, i stuggled alot throughout trying 2 understand y...which i never did it came 2 a hea dand i left. when we met he was against smoking and drug taking of any kind towards the end of our 2 yr relationship he started smoking crack i tried my best 2 help but with no avail now 4 weeks on after i left i found out 2day he died of his heart stopping due to an overdose now i dont know what 2 think or how 2 feel and i cant help feeling like i could of done something 2 help or prevent his death. his mum used 2 physically abuse him when he was younger and before he died i was the only one who understood who he really was and how he felt so alone and only ever wanted to know that someone would always be there for him as his mum never was and his dad left when he was very young now i have so many anansweared questions aand things i need 2 let go of and dont know how i feel incredibly lonely guilty and confused i wish we had made our peace and that i got to say goodbye, i forgive him for his past mistakes and can only hope he will rest in peace....simon i will always have love for you and in my heart you will never be forgotten x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

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