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Message from: Hannah, 28 Aug 04

Subject: I miss my dad so much

My dad died 5 years ago when I was 9 due to a medical error where the hospital gave him penicilin when they should of known he was allergic to it and he suffered a fatal allergic reaction. I miss my dad so much. I am a naturally eccentric and bubbly person but sometimes I feel I behave like that to mask my pain. I have joined a new school recently and only 1 of my friends knows that my dad is dead and sometimes when people talk about there dad it is really hard. I have recently represented england at rounders and am in the england development netball team and I just wish my dad could be here to witness and be proud of me in sport because that is ll I enjoy now my dad has gone. I am here to help, please email me if you want to chat I miss my dad so much and I would appreciate any words from you to help me to. thanks. love Hannah xxxxx

Subject: hiya

hiya hannah
my dad died just up 2 18 months ago now. he had a massive heart attack at home. i miss him so much. i used to swim for leeds and he was my coach, i spent all my time with him, because he took me swimming 6 times a week he was not only my dad but a great friend.
in the end i quit swimming because i just couldnt do it without him. but now i help to teach little kids how to swim. and when i turn 16 my boss will send me on a course so i can become a proper teacher, maybe one day i'll become a coach for leeds like my dad. everyone says he would have been proud and i hope he is. i bet your dad is proud too, how cant he be? you have done so well with your rounders.
i pretend im fine to everyone too. sometimes i find its easier then facing up to the truth. i dont know if thats how you feel. but it just seems easier to be ok. but maybe itd be for the best if just sometimes you let someone see how you're really feeling instead of hiding behind a false smile.

i hope that i have helped you in some way. good luck with your new school, and if you ever want to talk about your dad - or anything then i'll be here to listen.

Luv Nicky xxxxxx

Subject: (no subject)

today is my dad's birthday . he died 3 years i was only 11 yrs old...he was everything to me ...i miss him so much and i haven't been the same i still am lost in my life....i need help

Subject:(no subject)

hiya luv, i read your msg and think u are a very brave person u seem to have carried on as normall, i however have lost my dad in june of this year it was the day after my 15th birthday and i was there holding him in my arms when he died i just wish i wasn't so scared to tell him i luv him! i would like to get in touch with u maybe in a private letter or over msn so plz reply thankyou xxxxx

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Subject:(no subject)

my dad died a year this friday, its been mega hard for me and my family bcoz everything came at once, his birthday in nov, crimbo and new yr and now the annaversary of this death, i know what most o u r goin thru and its alot easier if u tlk 2 sum1 dont b afraid 2 coz i wish i had done. now i have all of these feelings bottled up in meh and i cry alot. We have named a star after him and donate alot to mcmillan nurses because they helped us through his illness. it is hard in the first 18 months or so but it gets easier by time.

Subject:Hannah

Sorry about your dad...i think ur very brave, and ur dad would b proud of u, and he will b looking down on u when u play ur sports... My dad died wen i was 13, i kept all my feelings inside, every1 knew @ skool summink was up cos usaly im bubbly and cheerful....Most of the ppl no, but wen im in sum classes @ skool and ppl talk about there dads i gt upset cos i wonder what would me and my dad b doing ova wkends and stuff! Keep smiling hun, i think u r doing gr8..... Loadza Hugz

Subject:dads

my dad has died 2 weeks ago and he commited suiside he hung himself in the garage and it is realy hard to deal with it as he did it on perpce and had a choice

Subject:(no subject)

My dad died in July last year and I still don’t think ive accepted it. He died due to medical negligence and we are in the process of going through an inquest into his death. I feel that the hospital didn’t pay enough attention to him. I think about him everyday and it never gets easier. I wish I could have told him how much I love him and not have argued with him so much about silly, little things. I light a candle for him most nights and dream about him. I don’t think ill ever realise that he’s not coming back. I recently went to a wedding and the brides father cried so much as he was so proud of his daughter, I wish my dad could be there to walk me down the isle.

Subject: I know how u feel

My dad died nearly 3 years ago i no how hard it is if u need 2 talk then just type back.

Subject: Message 4 Hannah

hey hannah, my dad commited suicide last year... Remember hun,ur dad will alwayz be proud of u no matter where he is,n he will probably be lookin down at u thinkin "thats my gurl", and its better to tlk about how u feel rather than keep it inside u,coz it will just build up inside u and u will keep feelin worse,so itz beta to tlk 2 sum,gd look hun XxX lv Chel

Subject:my dads death

hiya mate my dad died too im realy looking for someone too talk too aswell please try too find me on the message bord

Subject: mi dad died

hey mi dad died 7 yrs ago wen i was 8 i miss him so much i fell like im on mi own i av been tryin 2 find sum 1 who iz in da same boat as me but the only fink is he killed him self sorry 4 ur loss love danielle xxxxx

Subject: i miss my dad he was everything to me

hi my name is lizzie and m 14 from blackpool .my dad died in may this year he died suddenly of a massive heart atack in his lorry. so im a begginer fings r reli hard 4 me and i feel so aline coz there is no1 at scool i can tlak to n i defo aint speakin to da teachers bout it coz thet dont really no anyfink about me . i would just ike to that ther is someone elsse out there that knows how i feel aswell . also 12 moths ago my brother was diagnossed with cancer and 6 moths before that my grandma died so alot of bad stuff has been goin on .i just want my life to be like it was 3 years ago .ps .....r.i.p dad i miss you so much.

Subject:miss you

my dad died last year in september, when i was just 9. i cant live without him coz he was everything to me we lauhged together and we even cried together when we found out that he had cancer.Me and my family still haven't accepted that he is not here with us and i don't know how to cope- ive been to councilling and im now on a 9 month waiting list please can somebody help me if they have any advice on how to cope with this terrible state i am in. thank you

Subject: finding it hard when other people talk about their dads

hi, i know exsactly how you feel.i lost my dad when i was 8 (im 16 this year) when people talk about it i try not to listen because it hurts my heart. but 8 months ago i got a boyfriend called olly and everything seems to have changed. he makes me feel happy and when im sad inside he can tell and walks away from others with me hugs me and will listen for hours. maybe if you have a best friend you could ask them to walk away with you so you can just talk.

Subject: (no subject)

Hiya Hannah, my dad died July 8th this year. I found out when I was doing a sponsored charity walk for Cancer hospices.The Irony.

Subject: I no how it feels

my dad died almost a yr ago, 4 days b4 i started upper skool, i no how hard it is, but ive kept strong and i always remember wat he told me wen my nan died
wats final out here is never final inside you bcz they'll always b with u...in ur heart

Subject: my dad just died

Im 13 and my Dad just died, we were really close and it hasnt even been a month. I hold in my feelings because i dont like it when people see me cry, and i want to be strong about it. But every1 at school knows about it and i dont want to cry because i dont want to seem "off," but i dont want people to think that i dont care. I know how all of you feel. My dad died of an infection he got while having surgery, so its hard. I dont think it will get better, i keep expecting him to walk into the house and say hello. Oh God, i just realized i dont remember his voice, im crying right now... i cry alot, when other people arent around.

Subject: i know how you feel

my dad died a week ago ,im 11 nd i realy miss him its realy hard 2 talk abot it 2 people coz i cry and i run upstairs 2 my room.

Subject: dad

My dad died april 20th of this year at 6:23 A.M. I was in boot camp. I became a United States Marine at about 9:00 A.M. I miss him so much. I feel like I left him behind. He was fine when I went in on January 23rd. I knew something was wrong when I wrote to him and wrote to him but no replies. Nobody told me. Red Cross finally let me know that he was in the hospital. When I graduated my aunt and uncle were there and asked to use there cell phone to call him. Thats when I found out he died. I feel like I got left behind in the whole healing process. Everyone seems to have gotten over his death while I'm stuck in limbo. I miss him so much and it doesn't seem like anybody understands.

Subject: (no subject)

Hi i lost my mum nearly 6 years ago i was 10 its slitley different i know that iv jst started my first year in college and nobody really knows about my situation.When i lost my mum i handled it realy well but over thet past couple of years it started to get to me but with the supposrt of my family and freinds im getting through it takes time  but dont lose site of your dreams and be happy with what you do!!!!!!

Subject: my dad died

hi there,

my dad died just over 2 months ago of a massive heart attack. i havnt cried much and i didnt cry at the funeral. ive been readinng some of ppls messages and its nice to see that im not the only 1 whos going thru this. xxx