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Message from: Rosie - 04 Mar 04

Subject: my great-aunty died

my great-aunty died suddenly on sunday, after being ill for about a year...so in a way it was kind of expected although...it was still a shock and i only really started to believe it yesterday (at the worst possible time...i was in a lesson and started crying, and had to go out.) even though she was old, and ill, i just can't quite shake the feeling of utter sadness that's come over me since she died...her funeral's on friday and it'll be the second one i've had to go to in the space of 6 months (my 2nd cousin committed suicide in september) and...i'm just so scared cos i know it's going to be really hard...to make things worse, my friends at school are being REALLY distant and won't talk to me about it, one of my other friends is giving me a hard time and wanting me to help her with her life troubles...and i just have noone to talk to at all...

i just feel so alone and so sad all the time...i have to go to work and i'm sitting here crying...my form tutor last year was the best and i could talk to him at anytime, but we had to change at the start of this year, and i haven't talked to him properly since november...so i can't go and see him. but i'll go insane if i can't just talk to someone...and my friends are just adding to it all, intentionally or not.

i just don't know what to do...

Subject: tutor

Hi, sorry to hear about whats going on. Iwas just going to say can you not go and see him even if hes not your actual tutor anymore? Hes obviously somone you can trust. Plus a lot of schools have teachers with bereavement training but dont shout about it too much because it makes everyone aware of why students are going to see them...

Subject: For you

I completly understad what you mean by how no one understand and how they pressure you to help THEM! it is very frustrating after a loss and i think that every one who has ever been here completly understands that.