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Subject: The Missing Angel
9 years ago, my beautiful brave little cousin died of cancer 2 weeks before her second birthday. I was 15 at the time - hers was the first funeral i had ever been to and it broke my heart to see her tiny coffin being carried past me, knowing that i would never be able to give her a little kiss, never see her beautiful smile and just never have her around. Even 9 years later, now that i'm 'all grown up', the hurt hasn't gone away. My eyes still fill every time i think of her. I still curse and say 'why her?'. I still miss her as much today as i did then. And that is ok. Losing someone hurts and i guess i still want to feel that - i dont ever want to forget her beauty, her courage, her battle and her love. I will never ever forget that, no matter how many years pass by.

Natasha Louise, i love you forever, and i miss you every day. I would give the world to hold your tiny hand and hug you. I know i cant, but maybe one day. All my love, always. xxx

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I know how it feels, in a different way to you, my dad died 10 years ago when I was young. I find it hard to live sometimes to be honest but that's also because my head is all over the place, and my emotions swing from day to day. Hang in there anyway, you'll hold that hand one day. Believe me.