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message no. 2165
| From: Jenny |
Subject: lost too many people. it hurts
i've lost so many people it hurts so much. i'm 15.
on the day of the september 11th bombings my best friend died of leukemia whilst i was holding his hand
on the 11 june 2003 my friend died of a cancer tumor in his brain. they couldn't operate without killing him.
23rd october 2007 my granddad died of prostate cancer. i really loved him and i was on holiday at the time. i always remember him when i listen to the song birds by kate nash
last saturday. 21st march ( day before mother's day + day jade goody died) a very close friend of mine died because of a hit and run. his parents don't want me to go to the funeral and are acting as if i never knew him or them. they never liked me but to completely exile me from the funeral and cremation just makes it really painful.
my GCSE work is going worse and worse and i havent told any of the teachers so they are threatening me with detentions. i cry alot at school but i won't tell anyone because last time i was crying about my second friend that died the people i told accused me of being a lier and an attention seeker and it hurt even more.
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| Reply from: louise |
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hey, i know how hard you must be finding things at the moment, as i have also lost a couple of friends, but you cant keep everything to yourself and hold everything in. dont let the people who are calling you a liar get to you, as you know youre telling the truth. Just try to stay strong and remember the good times, im here to talk to you if you need me, love lou xxxx
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| Reply from: Megan |
Subject : So many losses
I can totally relate to all of you my mom found out she had cancer in January 2009 and that's when my world fell apart. The docter gave her 8 months to live. Then in February my brother and cousin died in a car accident. They were high. This completely tore me cuz some of my friends do things I asked them to stop cuz I didn't want to lose them too and they didn't want too so I distanced my self and lost my best friends. 2 weeks layer 3 of them died in a car accident. This completely broke me. In march I finally started to move on from everything bad when my dad died in his sleep. I felt all alone now it's April and have no idea what I am gonna do without my family. I am not depressed and not sucideal just feeling alone and missing all my friends! |
| Reply from: K |
Subject : No, no, and thrice no!
You.Are.Not.A.Bad.Mate.
I will say I'm sorry about your dad but i know it won't make you feel much better. I know how you mean when as soon as someone else is upset its almost like your not 'allowed' to be upset coz people might thiink your attention seeking! ANNOYING STUFF i know. Why don't you take this girl aside and comfort her, tell her you've lost your dad too and you know what shes going through. You can cry together, no harm in that. Maybe then some people will realise that you have feelings too and you have also lost your father. They may still have more sympathy for this girl because it is recent and raw, but at least your loss has been acknowledged. I hope this has helped you through this hard time. I'd love to hear back from you, Love Katie x
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