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message no. 1977
| From: Grace |
Subject : my horrebell loss
: i wock up one morrning to my best mates mum saying " good morning , we are going to gaybridge park today we just need to drive down to yours and check with your dad 1st"... "dad can we go down to gaybridge park please ....?
i asked. my dad ( thomas ) replyed " yes " "oh and happy farthers day dad ... i gave him as kiss on the cheek and left.
"dad we are home !" sophie my little sister screemed wanting to give our dad his card,mug and kiss for farthers day . however we arived to tears . my dad was aslep on the sofa .. ahh how sweet ... then the news came !
ermm your dad has had an injection to eas the pain of his cancer ... he is in a coma and can hear you but just cant speek . but he has got till tomoro morning then he will go and visit his dad in heaven !"cryed my aunt. i ran over to dad sayong to myself no..no..its all my fault i shouldnet have gone to gaybridge ! thomas and siobhan came in after. we all were speechless ! even worse it was on farthers day.i riped up the card that said you will fight canca in it and the smached the mug .. but gave him the kiss!
i didnt leave his side all night then suddenly we all gathered in his room...i couldnt find a pulse .. then a massive bemb of light shon onto my dad and then the words hes gone ... then the light disserpeared .
2 mounths on im to hurt .. i never see any of my famely and i really dont want to live on . people say time will ease the pain but it wont ! i wil do anythink to see my dad again . after all lifes for livbing and life begins at 40... my dad . 3 years he had to live it ! 3 years of pain! well i cant wait to see if they open up the gates for me ! that day i try to block out but it comes back into mind ! and all i keep thinking is its all my fault ..i should never have gone to gaybridge ...
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| Reply from: montanna |
Subject : hope
hey i no how u must feeel i lost my mum to cancer 2 years ago but i was to scared to stay in the room with her because all of my family thought it was wrong so i never got to say good bye and it is all my fault.
time doesnt ease the pain but you get used to living with it.
noone else understands what its like and my friends hate me because they think i just get upset over little things to get atention i am so over the whole of this crap that we put up with what is the point we al end up dead anyway.
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| Reply from: RD4U team |
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When we have lost our mum other people often find it difficult to understand. Do talk to someone if you can. Cruse has a Young People's Freephone Helpline on 08081671677 and also has branches of beraevement support workers. Details of the branches are on www.cruse.org.uk Posting messages also helps because other young people can help us.
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